snapped .
wht i rlly want :
- choices
------------
don't say things you don't mean ,
don't make promises you can't keep .
rlly , im irritated with your actions .
i dont give a damn abt your _ _ _ _ _ _ .
if it will even help things ,
i'll tell you ,
you're jumping to conclusions .
but thn ?
am i given a chance to speak ?
life's unfair ,
but how come no one told me ,
its more thn just unfair ?
more are involved .
you break the promises you made,
and waste my time away .
fine ,
you've to a decision .
and so have i .
you make sure you don't contradict wht you say .
don't try to reason with me ,
cause wtv you say will just be excuses .
nobody realises wht i do , until i don't do it.you think tht im doing it on purpose ?no , in fact , im trying not to do so ,
for your sake , believe it or not .
but you dont appreciate , you're like the others . no difference at all .have you realised how ________________________ . I CANT STAND IT I TELL YOU .WHO CAN ANYWAY .WHY IS IT THT YOU ALLOW OTHERS TO DO SO BUT NOT ME ?WHT DOES THIS PROVE .HUH ? SOMEHOW ,ONE WAY OR ANOTHER ,IT BECOMES MY FAULT AGN .---------------------------------my fat file cracked like $ %!$@#@!zzzz .---------------------Conclusion is simply the place whr you get tired of thinking.
Advice is wht we ask for when we already know the answer but wished we didnt .
early as it seems , but thn , i cant continue anymore . so my conclusion ? any advice ?but anyway , i've came to a point whr idc anymore ,nth matters anymore, its too tiring to hold on .
4:22 AM //
There's no love here.
the word 'earth' , is actually just a replacement for a place which tortures us.
it must be tht we are bitches and bastards tht come from heaven or hell ,
and tht we arrived here , to receive our punishment.
they give us a really boring life,
with occasional absurd stuff to deal with.
thn ask us to live through it.
by right, we should be glad whn we die,
cause it means tht the punishment has come to an end,
but, they give us friends and family,
and these are the ppl whom we dont want to leave.
as if its not enough,
they have all sorts of illness and cancer.
make us suffer from pain.
i must comment on how brillant the person who thought of this punishment is.
really brillant huh.
--------
do you knw how fucking selfish you fucking group of ppl are ,
FUCK OFF BACK TO CHINA ,
AND DONT COME BACK .
TAKE IT THT IM PLEADING YOU ,
BEGGING YOU.
complaining is all you know ,
really ,
OPEN YOUR SMALL BEADY EYES,
AND SEE FOR YOURSELF,
THOSE PPL THT YOU CALL FRIENDS ,
COMPLAIN ABT THEM AS WELL IF YOU THINK THT OUR BEHAVIOUR IS WRONG .
dont be sorry tht you caused all the trouble .
DONT SAY THINGS YOU DONT MEAN.
especially if i cant feel how sorry you are.
dont think tht every fucking one likes you okay.
the next time you decide you say ,
''Teacher , so and so did blah and blah ! "
look at yourself ,
and think .
so you think everyone should learn from you ?
next .
STOP BEING A STUPID DOG AND THINK ,
WOW , EVERYONE IS SO STUPID,
AND EVERYONE ADMIRES ME LIKE GOD.
THE EARTH DOESNT REVOLVE AROUND YOU.
either you think of a more creative way to attract the attention you want ,
or just stop trying to altogether.
and dont think i dont dare,
its just tht im more afraid of the consequences thn afraid tht you would try to kill me.
THINK BEFORE YOU TALK.
IF YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO CRITICISE ABT THINGS OR PPL ,
MAKE SURE YOU FUCKING THINK ABT IF YOU CAN DO BETTER THN THEM,
MAKE SURE THT YOU ARE BETTER THN THM IN EVERY SINGLE FUCKING WAY THR IS .
CAUSE, THE LAST TIME I'VE CHECKED ,
NO ONE'S PERFECT.
AND IM PRETTY SURE YOU ARENT THE FIRST PERFECT HUMAN ON EARTH,
SO JUST KEEP YOUR DAMN MOUTH SHUT .
and if you are almost perfect , but not thr yet.
i can tell you why .
cause you are a very loyal dog,
to your fucker , ****** .
next .
if you cant stand ppl talking bad behind your backs ,
thn dont do the same.
if you are afraid you'll be humiliated by us,
thn dont give us a reason to do so.
and whts the fucking reason we do so anw ?
cause you are an insensitive and proud freak.
im pretty sure the urge to punch you hard off the cliff is still thr.
and its getting stronger day by day.
as day by day,
you keep on adding to my already very long list of reasons why you suck so much .
ARENT YOU TIRED .
IM ALREADY SICK OF ADDING ON TO THT LIST .
STOP KEEPING UP THT FACADE.
DONT ACT AS IF EVERYONE LOVES YOU SO MUCH ,
STOP LOOKING DOWN ON PPL .
AND I CAN TELL YOU.
IF PPL CAN BE SOLD ON EBAY (LIKE WHT YOUR FRIENDS MENTIONED)
YOU WILL BE WORTH LESS THN A DOLLAR .
DONT BE UPSET ,
AT LEAST YOU ARENT FOC.
THTS ALL .
BUT SO WHT .
NO ONE WANTS TO BUY YOU .
SO JUST FUCK OFF TO CHINA , YOU MAY WORTH MORE THR .
----------------
5:42 AM //
There's no love here.
Waiting .
Still waiting .
------
why dont we just camp in school ?
6:16 AM //
There's no love here.
if it has never happened, you cant say its over.
time's taking all the memories tht involves you away,
and i swear,
im not doing anything to stop it at all.
its becoming extremely irritating - your voice.
its not okay, but still acceptable,
whn im hearing it from far away ( since you like talking so loud )
but whn you're near me ,
it becomes super irritating ,
i appreciate tht you are pretending ,
tht nth happened .
thanks alot .
still ,
you have too many bad points i can't accept .
thr isnt a trace of you appearing in my life.
so , get over it.
mope around,
show your bin chao chao face,
wtv .
idc .
i dont bother anymore .
just ,
give up.
whtever tht concerns you ,
dont tell me.
the door is open.
the thing is ,
you dont have a choice.
one way or another,
you have to get out of my life.
Really , Everything's fading.
7:04 AM //
There's no love here.
if you've no mood for anything,
wht do you do?
---
typical saturday night before PSLE ,
whr you are supposed to be studying like thr's no tmr .
'knw whts my problem here ?
im not stressed .
i just ..
cant study .
i dont have the determination.
i have no idea wht wrong with me .
& if i score results ,
not up to my expectations ?
i'll just be unhappy ,
mope around for few days .
thn im back to normal i guess .
so wht do i do whn im normal ?
i've just realised .
i dont have a life .
its so lame , and boring .
reason why i dont reread books :
'cause whts the damn point ,
whn you already knw whts gonna happen ?
apply the same concept to my life .
reason why i hate it so much :
the same thing is gonna happen ,
so ya, i just hate it .
'' yesterday's the past , today's a gift , tmr's a mystery "
wht teh hell is this .
since the same occasions are happening everyday ,
it means tht ,
past = gift = mystery -> same meaning ?
just great .
is it worth being upset over trival matters like him ? get over it , friend . -- the feeling's fading away,
5:17 AM //
There's no love here.
all these books , movies , stories , wtv thr is out thr in this fricking world ,
are just painting more and more unrealistic illusions in your head .
i should've known .
srsly , out of all these you have seen/read ,
most are just leading you on to thinking abt some stuff tht ,
sadly , doesnt happen regularly .
they're testing ,
how far our imagination can run , wildly .
see , i should guessed ,
they have an motive .
dont you get it .
all these cant be real .
and wake up ,
cause miracles dont happen ,
on a regular basis .
so ,
wht i meant was , in simple english -
miracles dont happen all the time , especially whn it involves you or me .
simple enough ?
confuses us the difference ,
between reality and fantasy .
and not to mention .
life's boring .
admit it .
it is .
occasional thrills dont keep you alive for long .
makes me wonder ,
do we live to die ,
thn die to live and die agn .
(no , im nt sitting at the edge of the building ,
with the laptop on my lap ,
and deciding to jump off after this .
'cause nt .
you're still going to see me tmr ,
and the day after.
and the next day after tht .
till this year ends .
yes , miserable isnt it .)
maybe , maybe not .
but its a cycle over and over agn .
and agn , you've to admit .
tht wht makes you yawn ,
are cycles .
true enough , cycles are th best whn it comes to science .
'cause thr's only one way to go ,
you knw .
the process is always th same.
like the water cycle .
but have you ever ever imagined .
if you were a dumb water droplet ,
from the sea/ocean/whtever ,
thn you evaporate , and yadayada .
boring isnt it .
same process everytime .
maybe you wished , for a change .
maybe you dont want to be a water droplet anymore .
maybe ...
but you dont have a choice do you ?
and wht if , you met other water droplets .
who ,
as if their existence is to annoy and irritate you .
wont you just hope .
tht it evaporates .
but smth vry wrong happened .
disallowing condensation to take place .
and thn , yay !
its gone ,
for good .
okay , i knw .
im ranting off as if thr's no tmr .
okok , i'll go now .
G'nights all , water droplets .
5:43 AM //
There's no love here.
the books werent as bad as expected .
yesterday , i think somehow the battery in my phone was wet ,
thn make my phone cannot on .
so bought a new battery .
finally , the dumb phone worked .
whts so stupid is ,
now is 6am in the dumb morning .
supposed to meet stef at 7.30am
so decided to wake up at 6.15plus .
thn , wth .
i forgot to set the dates and time yesterday .
so ,
YES I WOKE UP AT 5.15AM .
i could have slept an hour moreeeeeeeeeee .
zzzz .
maybe lets talk abt smth else .
firstly , i'm officially over ninety-nines .
second , i'm vryvryvry lazy , so i think i will fail my PSLE .
whts next .
actually , i think im just delaying your time .
so , i think thts all for now .
2:57 PM //
There's no love here.
today , as expected , was another boring day ,
yay .
rhymes eh ?
anw , got back all the papers .
didnt take eng paper ,
so pretty boring whn it comes to eng period .
idk why so tired today ,
anw ,
so i guess it should be
math : 91
sci : 82.5
chi : 92.5
you cant exactly count the total score ..
gonna have a hard time with my books tmr .
zzzz .
lazy leh ,
how .
and , next week holiday le .
but it'll stil be boring .
and we've this CLcamp
wth is tht anw .
1:41 AM //
There's no love here.
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snapped .
wht i rlly want :
- choices
------------
don't say things you don't mean ,
don't make promises you can't keep .
rlly , im irritated with your actions .
i dont give a damn abt your _ _ _ _ _ _ .
if it will even help things ,
i'll tell you ,
you're jumping to conclusions .
but thn ?
am i given a chance to speak ?
life's unfair ,
but how come no one told me ,
its more thn just unfair ?
more are involved .
you break the promises you made,
and waste my time away .
fine ,
you've to a decision .
and so have i .
you make sure you don't contradict wht you say .
don't try to reason with me ,
cause wtv you say will just be excuses .
nobody realises wht i do , until i don't do it.you think tht im doing it on purpose ?no , in fact , im trying not to do so ,
for your sake , believe it or not .
but you dont appreciate , you're like the others . no difference at all .have you realised how ________________________ . I CANT STAND IT I TELL YOU .WHO CAN ANYWAY .WHY IS IT THT YOU ALLOW OTHERS TO DO SO BUT NOT ME ?WHT DOES THIS PROVE .HUH ? SOMEHOW ,ONE WAY OR ANOTHER ,IT BECOMES MY FAULT AGN .---------------------------------my fat file cracked like $ %!$@#@!zzzz .---------------------Conclusion is simply the place whr you get tired of thinking.
Advice is wht we ask for when we already know the answer but wished we didnt .
early as it seems , but thn , i cant continue anymore . so my conclusion ? any advice ?but anyway , i've came to a point whr idc anymore ,nth matters anymore, its too tiring to hold on .
4:22 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
the word 'earth' , is actually just a replacement for a place which tortures us.
it must be tht we are bitches and bastards tht come from heaven or hell ,
and tht we arrived here , to receive our punishment.
they give us a really boring life,
with occasional absurd stuff to deal with.
thn ask us to live through it.
by right, we should be glad whn we die,
cause it means tht the punishment has come to an end,
but, they give us friends and family,
and these are the ppl whom we dont want to leave.
as if its not enough,
they have all sorts of illness and cancer.
make us suffer from pain.
i must comment on how brillant the person who thought of this punishment is.
really brillant huh.
--------
do you knw how fucking selfish you fucking group of ppl are ,
FUCK OFF BACK TO CHINA ,
AND DONT COME BACK .
TAKE IT THT IM PLEADING YOU ,
BEGGING YOU.
complaining is all you know ,
really ,
OPEN YOUR SMALL BEADY EYES,
AND SEE FOR YOURSELF,
THOSE PPL THT YOU CALL FRIENDS ,
COMPLAIN ABT THEM AS WELL IF YOU THINK THT OUR BEHAVIOUR IS WRONG .
dont be sorry tht you caused all the trouble .
DONT SAY THINGS YOU DONT MEAN.
especially if i cant feel how sorry you are.
dont think tht every fucking one likes you okay.
the next time you decide you say ,
''Teacher , so and so did blah and blah ! "
look at yourself ,
and think .
so you think everyone should learn from you ?
next .
STOP BEING A STUPID DOG AND THINK ,
WOW , EVERYONE IS SO STUPID,
AND EVERYONE ADMIRES ME LIKE GOD.
THE EARTH DOESNT REVOLVE AROUND YOU.
either you think of a more creative way to attract the attention you want ,
or just stop trying to altogether.
and dont think i dont dare,
its just tht im more afraid of the consequences thn afraid tht you would try to kill me.
THINK BEFORE YOU TALK.
IF YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO CRITICISE ABT THINGS OR PPL ,
MAKE SURE YOU FUCKING THINK ABT IF YOU CAN DO BETTER THN THEM,
MAKE SURE THT YOU ARE BETTER THN THM IN EVERY SINGLE FUCKING WAY THR IS .
CAUSE, THE LAST TIME I'VE CHECKED ,
NO ONE'S PERFECT.
AND IM PRETTY SURE YOU ARENT THE FIRST PERFECT HUMAN ON EARTH,
SO JUST KEEP YOUR DAMN MOUTH SHUT .
and if you are almost perfect , but not thr yet.
i can tell you why .
cause you are a very loyal dog,
to your fucker , ****** .
next .
if you cant stand ppl talking bad behind your backs ,
thn dont do the same.
if you are afraid you'll be humiliated by us,
thn dont give us a reason to do so.
and whts the fucking reason we do so anw ?
cause you are an insensitive and proud freak.
im pretty sure the urge to punch you hard off the cliff is still thr.
and its getting stronger day by day.
as day by day,
you keep on adding to my already very long list of reasons why you suck so much .
ARENT YOU TIRED .
IM ALREADY SICK OF ADDING ON TO THT LIST .
STOP KEEPING UP THT FACADE.
DONT ACT AS IF EVERYONE LOVES YOU SO MUCH ,
STOP LOOKING DOWN ON PPL .
AND I CAN TELL YOU.
IF PPL CAN BE SOLD ON EBAY (LIKE WHT YOUR FRIENDS MENTIONED)
YOU WILL BE WORTH LESS THN A DOLLAR .
DONT BE UPSET ,
AT LEAST YOU ARENT FOC.
THTS ALL .
BUT SO WHT .
NO ONE WANTS TO BUY YOU .
SO JUST FUCK OFF TO CHINA , YOU MAY WORTH MORE THR .
----------------
5:42 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
Waiting .
Still waiting .
------
why dont we just camp in school ?
6:16 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
if it has never happened, you cant say its over.
time's taking all the memories tht involves you away,
and i swear,
im not doing anything to stop it at all.
its becoming extremely irritating - your voice.
its not okay, but still acceptable,
whn im hearing it from far away ( since you like talking so loud )
but whn you're near me ,
it becomes super irritating ,
i appreciate tht you are pretending ,
tht nth happened .
thanks alot .
still ,
you have too many bad points i can't accept .
thr isnt a trace of you appearing in my life.
so , get over it.
mope around,
show your bin chao chao face,
wtv .
idc .
i dont bother anymore .
just ,
give up.
whtever tht concerns you ,
dont tell me.
the door is open.
the thing is ,
you dont have a choice.
one way or another,
you have to get out of my life.
Really , Everything's fading.
7:04 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
if you've no mood for anything,
wht do you do?
---
typical saturday night before PSLE ,
whr you are supposed to be studying like thr's no tmr .
'knw whts my problem here ?
im not stressed .
i just ..
cant study .
i dont have the determination.
i have no idea wht wrong with me .
& if i score results ,
not up to my expectations ?
i'll just be unhappy ,
mope around for few days .
thn im back to normal i guess .
so wht do i do whn im normal ?
i've just realised .
i dont have a life .
its so lame , and boring .
reason why i dont reread books :
'cause whts the damn point ,
whn you already knw whts gonna happen ?
apply the same concept to my life .
reason why i hate it so much :
the same thing is gonna happen ,
so ya, i just hate it .
'' yesterday's the past , today's a gift , tmr's a mystery "
wht teh hell is this .
since the same occasions are happening everyday ,
it means tht ,
past = gift = mystery -> same meaning ?
just great .
is it worth being upset over trival matters like him ? get over it , friend . -- the feeling's fading away,
5:17 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
all these books , movies , stories , wtv thr is out thr in this fricking world ,
are just painting more and more unrealistic illusions in your head .
i should've known .
srsly , out of all these you have seen/read ,
most are just leading you on to thinking abt some stuff tht ,
sadly , doesnt happen regularly .
they're testing ,
how far our imagination can run , wildly .
see , i should guessed ,
they have an motive .
dont you get it .
all these cant be real .
and wake up ,
cause miracles dont happen ,
on a regular basis .
so ,
wht i meant was , in simple english -
miracles dont happen all the time , especially whn it involves you or me .
simple enough ?
confuses us the difference ,
between reality and fantasy .
and not to mention .
life's boring .
admit it .
it is .
occasional thrills dont keep you alive for long .
makes me wonder ,
do we live to die ,
thn die to live and die agn .
(no , im nt sitting at the edge of the building ,
with the laptop on my lap ,
and deciding to jump off after this .
'cause nt .
you're still going to see me tmr ,
and the day after.
and the next day after tht .
till this year ends .
yes , miserable isnt it .)
maybe , maybe not .
but its a cycle over and over agn .
and agn , you've to admit .
tht wht makes you yawn ,
are cycles .
true enough , cycles are th best whn it comes to science .
'cause thr's only one way to go ,
you knw .
the process is always th same.
like the water cycle .
but have you ever ever imagined .
if you were a dumb water droplet ,
from the sea/ocean/whtever ,
thn you evaporate , and yadayada .
boring isnt it .
same process everytime .
maybe you wished , for a change .
maybe you dont want to be a water droplet anymore .
maybe ...
but you dont have a choice do you ?
and wht if , you met other water droplets .
who ,
as if their existence is to annoy and irritate you .
wont you just hope .
tht it evaporates .
but smth vry wrong happened .
disallowing condensation to take place .
and thn , yay !
its gone ,
for good .
okay , i knw .
im ranting off as if thr's no tmr .
okok , i'll go now .
G'nights all , water droplets .
5:43 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
the books werent as bad as expected .
yesterday , i think somehow the battery in my phone was wet ,
thn make my phone cannot on .
so bought a new battery .
finally , the dumb phone worked .
whts so stupid is ,
now is 6am in the dumb morning .
supposed to meet stef at 7.30am
so decided to wake up at 6.15plus .
thn , wth .
i forgot to set the dates and time yesterday .
so ,
YES I WOKE UP AT 5.15AM .
i could have slept an hour moreeeeeeeeeee .
zzzz .
maybe lets talk abt smth else .
firstly , i'm officially over ninety-nines .
second , i'm vryvryvry lazy , so i think i will fail my PSLE .
whts next .
actually , i think im just delaying your time .
so , i think thts all for now .
2:57 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
today , as expected , was another boring day ,
yay .
rhymes eh ?
anw , got back all the papers .
didnt take eng paper ,
so pretty boring whn it comes to eng period .
idk why so tired today ,
anw ,
so i guess it should be
math : 91
sci : 82.5
chi : 92.5
you cant exactly count the total score ..
gonna have a hard time with my books tmr .
zzzz .
lazy leh ,
how .
and , next week holiday le .
but it'll stil be boring .
and we've this CLcamp
wth is tht anw .
1:41 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun